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Hello there. Thank you for viewing my profile.

i need gym/workout routine advice. i just started my gym membership in ortigas this november 2017 but their programs and personal trainers cost a lot of money. just want to seek advice especially my diet and workout program (for beginner). thanks in advance. :)

anyone knows where to buy loose leaf teas in Metro Manila?

any lgbt film recommendations? local and foreign... plus where to watch/download...

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1st. We were young and in love. but ours was short-lived. you pushed me away, confused and hurt. a year has passed and i found out you died from cancer. you were struggling for your life and you didnt involve me. that's what hurts so much. then again, you didnt want to see me hurting while your life was dwindling away... i cried a lot afterwards but when i dreamt of you one night, you hugged and calmed me. you said it was okay. that's when i knew you were already at peace and i had forgiven you.

2nd. we thought we would last forever. years have passed and we still held on to each other. we did admit the spark that was once there subsided over time, but we stood side by side... until he came along in your life... and the other one... and i was there, stupidly giving you another chance. but i didnt want to be a martyr, i just wanted to be loved. it was then that i knew i needed to end our supposed to be "lifetime partnership."

3rd. you and i both knew we were not gonna last for a long time but we did give ourselves a chance to be companions. and for a couple of years, we became more and more as friends than lovers, and it was obvious in our behaviors and our differences in interests and attitude, but our companionship was fun. we bonded with both our families and friends, joining in outings and celebrations. but we also knew that we needed ours to end and look for serious ones. thank you for still keeping in contact with my family and friends.

4th. i really thought you were the one. maybe you were really just still young and unprepared to commit when i was already trying to settle down. all those promises we made to each other were nothing more than just sweet lies. you said you loved me to the moon and back. you told me "walang iwanan, tag init o tag ulan." you gave me hope that you and i will be wed-locked and adopt a child.... and then out of the blue, you would tell me you miss being single and that you wanted to cool off. i was left confused, broken and devastated. i felt like you didnt love me like you said... i felt like you were still chatting with others when i deleted my accounts and contacts just for you. you were young and unfair, and somehow i still love you. i ended things because i wanted you to experience what life has to offer which i cannot give you, even though im hurting inside. As Moira said in her song, isusuko na ang sandata, aatras na sa laban, di dahil naduduwag kundi dahil mahal kita. malaya ka na. i just hope that you find a good partner that will take good care of you and love you more than i did...

now im alone, but im not lonely. i have friends. i have a busy job. i have my family. and i have the time to do whatever i want. more than 10 combined years of being in a relationship made me rethink my life, and although im glad i had experienced these kinds of things, i guess its time to continue my life by myself for now..

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looking for new friends and casual dates over coffee or tea. maybe adventure buddy. i really want to go to different places but cant do it on my own haha.